Firstly, I'm not judging anyone, and I certainly hate no-one. I feel isolated due to my situation, and basically, yes, I cannot enjoy myself- I feel incapable of having fun because I am way to sellf-conscious. But I'm not judging anyone by their drinking mor drug or smoking, or whatever you want to call it - habits. I think its just a way of coping with life- which is certainly not cherries and cream, with a little sugar on top. Life is not fantastic- if it was we would not need artificial substances to take us away from reality. I am not without my own type of addiction- I use fiction or the like to escape from reality. That's probably one of the reason I don't do drugs or drink alcohol- because I know my reliance on these substances would be greater than most peoples. I am weak, and pathetic. Also, so far, I have not met a single Archaeology person who I have not liked(with, perhaps, the exception of Stig). Yes, I agree, I was judging you all initially, and I was wrong in doing so. But I don't damn people. I dislike what people do sometimes, just like I often hate the things that I do, but that doesn't mean I hate people. I see weaknesses only because they match my own.
So, dear friend, if I may call you so, please forgive me if I offended you. I have attempted to justify myself, and I hope that will aid in your understanding. Perhaps I am just a pretentious ice queen, but isn't everyone? Perhaps these 'false' morals, as you put it, are just my way of creating a facade underwhich I can feel safe.
